questions. .

even though you know the Lord is listenin and sees all
who do you talk to 
when you're not willing to open up
or talk to the big man upstairs.
it sounds weird but its. .. UGGGHHH!!!!
i know crying wouldnt help so why should i!!!
a hug??
maybe some moral support?
maybe mother's love im misssin. . .smh what am i to do
i miss him and her
procrastination, damnit
happiness, bliiss, love??
where is love!
not, to be in love
but love that makes you whole
makes you happy.. makes you feel ok 
when everything seems to fall apart.
where is THAT love..
all these ppl around and i never felt so
secluded and to myself.
my struggles bring my emotions to a pivotal pit.
the ultimate low
and i never wanted to sit and stay here so badly before
CUT OFF THE WORLD and feel alone.