Tuesday, November 30, 2010

a dream. .

where is that person
that makes me feel happy no matter the situation
who can comfort me in a time of need like this
the moments i wish to cry and release all my frustrations
lift this unbearable weight of guilt, pain, anger, and solitaire.
being alone never hurt anyone too bad
but its always nice to have that one person
who can make your world a better place after just one hug
the one who wont lie to you
and when they are honest, eases it to you
or gives it to you how you need it best

that person that finds something so difficult about you
but tries, gets through it for you
is there and holds it down
and when things are better, lets you float and dream on
that person that fully allows you to be you (rare)
and who you share the comfort of silence with
not because there's nothing to say
but because you want to enjoy the quality time and vibes between you two
when you want to let each other in and surround yourselves with one another
feel warm and . . ( in love)
i'm not looking for love
just hoping it finds me when its ready
so that when it is i can express how i can take care of it
ready to run that extra mile when times make you weak
ready to withstand the storm, pain, and ignorance that comes with a bond so strong
that nothing on earth would stand a chance
ready to fly when moments are made for joy, and you become so lifted
and ready to give in when its hard to admit i was wrong
given the chance i hope i make the right decision(s)
and should i not,
i hope you're there to correct me before its too late

what a dream

. . .

out of everything that could make me angry
calling me selfish, lazy, or stupid is something you WON'T do
i give myself to all those who take me in
im not the creme de la creme of givers but i do what i can to help
you get under my skin with these false accusations
the sole reason of my frustrations and negativity
i wish for everything i could replace you
who is "you"?
YOU are the person that offends me
YOU are the person that aims to anger me
YOU are the person who cares less if and/or how you hurt me
YOU are the reason i fill my life with sighs, tears and headaches!!!
i HATE YOU
hate is a powerful word and i used it correctly
eat THAT, matter of fact, CHOKE and KILL OVER on it

i want to throw a tantrum
break everything of yours in sight
hurt you the best way i can
to show you how YOU've made me feel my entire life
i suffer from continuous rage and mixed emotions because of YOU
[you haven't even seen angry yet]
this is only frustration
if i were angry u wouldn't have a blog about YOU
only broken vessels beneath the skin from the impact of my fist making contact with. your. face.
fuck YOU
you're worthless to me

Monday, November 29, 2010

:):

soooo, really.
hurry so. .
i can kiss you, hug you.
hopefully.
make me smile, and vice versa.

no poke, text or chat, tickle me back

mmmmmh???
what should i thinker aloud?


its so beautiful in the ATL right now! im single n minglin, holdin back what i can, and this adventure aint began. . .yet

thinker ending now. .

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